Leaving on a jet plane

Phew!

People, I am "tye tye" (which just means in annoying jenn.ster speak that i'm tired) lol. I've been up the last two nights until 4 and 4:30am editing Chance Encounters.

I have been busting my ass editing this book so I can... SEND IT TO MY EDITOR!?!?!?
What the heck? Why do I suddenly feel like the woman who cleans her house because the housekeeper's coming? I cannot be the only writer who does this. I just want it in the best shape possible because I don't want my editor to hate me and never want to work with me again. I have that fear. That she'll be like, "Holy crap Jenn, your books are WAY! TOO! MUCH! WORK! so you'll have to find a new editor."

Why did, "he's just not that into you" suddenly come to mind?

I know, I know... I'm not normal.

I think it's because I am fully aware of how much I still have to learn as a writer. How much further I can grow and push myself to give you, the reader, my stories in a BETTER way. I know I can improve my writing and the thing is... I WANT TO. I want to give you better stories. I want to give you better writing.

Don't get me wrong, I love throwing my emotional vomit all over the pages for you to read (you are so welcome for that visual) and I honestly don't want the way in which I write to change... because I like the emotions that come from within me. I literally sit behind my computer and freaking bawl when I write certain scenes. THEY HURT! And I don't want my style to change.

I just want to grow.

For you.

And I promise that I will. With each book I write, I aim to write it better, fuller, richer and deeper.

I think i'm really tired. This post is depressing me.

Alright, I'm headed down to San Diego for some much needed rest and relaxation at a super fancy villa thing (thanks to my rockstar friend). I can't even begin to tell you how much I'm looking forward to my 5 star massage on Saturday. *swoon*

You guys are the best. Thanks for spreading the word about In Dreams and posting positive things about it online. I know I say it all the time, but my book doesn't sell without you. So thank you. I appreciate it. :)